Slack

Weeks 36 - 38

Yes I've been incredibly slack, and it's reflected in my stats. A grand total loss of 100 grams for the past four weeks. I've been trying to work out what's going on with me. Why have I been sabotaging myself at the beginning of every week and then racing to redeem myself and burn it all off by weigh in?
I'm not propelling myself forward at the moment, I'm only just treading water. And if I'm not careful, I'll soon be sinking. I want to lose weight so so much, but obviously not more than other things at the moment, or I'd be doing that. It's time to face up to myself and to the things that are holding me back from my dream.
For one thing, I'm a sugar addict. In all forms - lollies, chocolate, cakes, biscuits...you name it, I love it. Desserts are my favourite thing. And after losing almost 17kg, I'm still eating too much of this stuff and too little of the good stuff. You know, the stuff that is of this earth, that grows out of the ground, flies in the air, runs, flows in the river or swims in the ocean. Yep, I need to eat more meat, seafood, vegies, fruit and drink more water AND less of the other stuff that's not sweeteners. If fact, I've been trying to take them out of my life.
So I need to learn balance. And I need to learn self love. I need to love myself enough to want to be rid of this weight. I deserve to be healthy. I deserve to look good and feel good and to be able to shop at all the shops I want to shop at!
Anyway, in the midst of all these weight loss ups and downs, some really great things have been happening to. Hubby and I celebrated our second anniversary over the middle of June and went and stayed at the casino on the Gold Coast. Beautiful room and fantastic night! Though we missed Michael, who was at home with my mum. We just had the best time and it was so so nice.